It's not reactive or dramatic, just more of a stagnant feeling. its been a few weeks since our last stage two meeting and nothing is happening very fast, again it feels like waiting, waiting waiting. What is it that makes me so impatient? It's not very mindful! My defences have been low this week due to hormones, work stress and a cold and I have found that I've been more vulnerable to negative thoughts creeping in and taking me by surprise, some things I thought that I'd buried have been cropping up and I've been feeling old sadnesses.
I threw myself into our current piece of work about 'Our relationship' writing 15 pages of heartfelt emotions, opinions and descriptions of Mine and Mr K's 12 years together. I really put everything into these bits of work as I feel its incredibly important for our SW to get the most detailed view of us possible, but I have to say it's quite draining!
We have our 2nd stage two meeting tomorrow so hopefully this will open some new doors in my head and our SW will be getting more of a clear picture of us.